We may not know which way to go
On this dark road
(Mr. Duckworth)
All of these hoes make it difficult
Session ten, breakthrough

One of these lives, I'ma make things right
With the wrongs I've done, that's one of you now
With the Father, Son, 'til then, I fight
Rain on me, put the blame on me
Got guilt, got hurt, got shame on me
Got six magazines that's aimed at me
Done every magazine, what's fame to me? (And I'm trippin' and fallin')
It's a game to me, where the bedroom at?
Sleep, I ain't had affairs with that
What's fair when the hearts and the words don't reach?
What's fair when the money don't take things back?
It's rare when somebody take your dreams back? (And I'm trippin' and fallin')
I care too much, wanna share too much
In my head too much, I shut down too
I ain't there too much, I'm a complex soul
They layered me up, then broke me down
And moralities dust, I lack in trust (and I'm trippin' and fallin')
This time around, I trust myself
Please everybody else but myself
All else fails, I was myself
Out done fear, out done myself
This year, you better one yourself (and I'm trippin' and fallin')
Masks on the babies, mask on an opp
Wear masks in the neighborhood stores you shot
But a mask won't hide who you are inside
Look around, the realities carved in the lies
Wipe my ego, dodge my pride (and I'm trippin' and fallin')
Look myself in the mirror
Amityville, I ain't seen nothin' scarier
I fought like a pit bull terrier, blood I shed could fill up aquariums
Tell my angels, "Carry 'em" (and I'm trippin' and fallin')
Every emotion been deprived
Even my strong points couldn't survive
If I didn't learn to love myself, forgive myself a hundred times, dawg

I love when you count me out (huh)
I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out (wah, woo, ooh)
I love when you count me out
Fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up, fuck it up, fuckin' it up
How you gon' win my trust when the lies run deep? (Wah, woo, wah)
How you gon' bend your love when the bad don't sleep? (Sheeesh)
Beep, beep, crash our feelings in the middle of the street (vroom, vroom)

Fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up, fuck it up, fuckin' it up (huh, huh)

When you was at your lowest, tell me where the hoes was at?
When you was at your lowest, tell me where the bros was at?
Three-thirty in the mornin', scroll through the call log (huh, huh, huh, huh)
Ain't nobody but the mirror lookin' for the fall off (Brrt)

I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out (wah, woo, wah, woo, wah)

My name is in your mouth, shoo, shoo
It's gon' take more than pride to stop
Call 9-1-1, I caught a body
Sun up now, yesterday is fadin'
Healing's only 'bout a mile away
Let me tell you 'bout the women I know (that's my baby)
I know karma like to follow us strong (sheesh)
I know millionaires that feel alone (sheesh)
Anytime I couldn't find God, I still could find myself through a song
Many find they life in a phone

Fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up, fuck it up, fuckin' it up

You said I'd feel better if I just work hard without liftin' my head up
That left me fed up
You made me worry, I wanted my best version but you ignored me
Then changed the story
Then changed the story
Good energy in the room, drop the location, please
Antibiotic for the womb, when I'm frustrated, please
(Antibiotic for the womb, when I'm frustrated)
Tryna keep my good conscious in rotation
Thoughts in my head, they livin' there with no- (tryna keep my good)
I made a decision, never give you my feelings
Fuck with you from, fuck with you from a distance
Some put it on the Devil when they fall short
I put it on my ego, lord of all lords
Sometimes I fall for her, dawg

I love when you count me out
I love when you count me out (sheesh)
I love when you count me out (sheesh)
I love when you count me out
My name is in your mouth

Fuck it up, fuck it up (true, true)
Fuck it up, fuck it up, fuckin' it up

Miss Regrets, I believe that you done me wrong (Miss Regrets)
Miss Regrets, can you please exit out my home? (Miss Regrets)
Miss Regret, I think I'm better off alone (Miss Regrets)
(Miss Regret)
Miss Regret, I got these deep regrets (and I'm trippin' and fallin')
Some things I can't forget
Lord knows, I've tried my best
You said it's not my best
I came up out my flesh
Some things I must confess (ayy, ayy) (and I'm trippin' and fallin')
Spoke my truth, paid my debt (ayy, ayy)
Can't you see I'ma wreck? (Ayy, ayy)
Let me loose, I digress (ayy, ayy)
This is me and I'm blessed (ayy, ayy)
This is me and I'm blessed (ayy, ayy)
This is me and I'm blessed (ayy, ayy)
This is me and I'm blessed (ayy, ayy)
Anybody fightin' through the stress? (Ayy, ayy)
Anybody fightin' through the?

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Tell of pestilence and no pessimism
How you downin' when records could get you recognition?
The differences between a handout and having assistance
That’s night and day, it's safe to say that this is tunnel vision
My uncle pissin' dirty, he thirty, ask me for urine
Ayy, dude, you dirty, like Eddy Curry, ask for forgiveness
So I can’t blame any day that we tried to cheat the system
If it ain't far as the first place, the fuck is we gon' win in?
Potential bias and potential wires
Politic with the tooly, they keep a wrench and pliers
Put you in a private land and got your name engraved
Or get locked up, released on bond with bread, yo, am I saved?

'Cause it's so insane
Nothing's changed
Watch it fade away (Oh)
Yeah

Like Golden State, I could see the future, my draft included
The stock rising for music with deeper meanings to it
The infrastructure, the city broke, you can see the sewage
Chic like Bo Peep, lowkey, keep reclusive
City overheated like the engine needed cooling
This is antifreeze
Like a vanity, we see it for what it is
Hop a banister, the teenagers bust your lips simply for the fuck of it
Potential bangers and preemptive danger
Pent-up aggression, your death is proof that some children gangster
They partition parts in the metropolis you live in
And got the kids in the park pondering what a rim is

‍
'Cause it's so insane
Nothing’s changed
Watch it fade away (Fade away, fade away, fade away)
’Cause it's so insane
Nothing’s changed
Watch it fade away

Draw the cat eye, sharp enough to kill a man
You did some bad things, but I'm the worst of them
Sometimes I wonder which one will be your last lie
They say looks can kill and I might try
I don't dress for women
I don't dress for men
Lately I've been dressing for revenge

I don't start it but I can tell you how it ends
Don't get sad, get even
So on the weekends
I don't dress for friends
Lately I've been dressing for revenge

She needed cold hard proof so I gave her some
She had the envelope, where you think she got it from?
Now she gets the house, gets the kids, gets the pride
Picture me thick as thieves with your ex-wife
And she looks so pretty
Driving in your Benz
Lately she's been dressing for revenge

She don't start it, but she can tell you how it ends
Don't get sad, get even
So on the weekends
She don't dress for friends
Lately she's been dressing for revenge

Ladies always rise above
Ladies know what people want
Someone sweet and kind and fun
The lady simply had enough

While he was doing lines
And crossing all of mine
Someone told his white collar crimes to the FBI
And I don't dress for villains
Or for innocents
I'm on my vigilante shh again

I don't start it, but I can tell you how it ends
Don't get sad, get even
So on the weekends
I don't dress for friends
Lately I've been dressing for revenge

‍

I need a lie down
Only just got up
I feel so uninspired
I feel like giving up
I feel like someone has
Punched me in the guts
But I kinda like it
'Cause it feels like being in love

Being in love
Being in love
Being in love

I lost my appetite
I cannot sleep at night
I cannot concentrate
I do not feel too great
The world is caving in
And I'm kinda struggling
But I kinda like it
'Cause it feels like being in love

Being in love
Being in love
Being in love
Being in
La la la la, la la la la la
La la la la, la la la la la

I tried to meditate
But I just medicate
Pour me another drink
Don't wanna have to think
I think I lost my shit
Some kind of fucked up trip
But I kinda like it
'Cause it feels like being in love

Being in love
Being in love
Being in love
Being in love
Being in love
Being in love
Being in love
Being in
La la la la, la la la la la
La la la la, la la la la la

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I was a bad love
Now I can get some
I got a heart full of
I got a heart full of re-re-redemption

I was a bad love
Now I can get some
I got a heart full of
I got a heart full of re-re-redemption

Yeah, now run baby run
Run from the bad love
New love baby, come on honey, give me some
Run baby run
Run from the bad love
New love baby, come on honey, give me some

Run baby run
Run from the bad love
New love baby, come on honey, give me some
Run baby run
Run from the bad love
New love baby, come on honey, give me some

Forgive me, give it to me
Tell me what to do
Tell me what to do to-to-to keep it
I need your lovin'
I wanna be your honey
Tell me what to do
Tell me what to do to-to-to keep it goin'

Yeah, now run baby run
Run from the bad love
New love baby, come on honey, give me some
Run baby run
Run from the bad love
New love baby, come on honey, give me some

Run baby run
Run from the bad love
New love baby, come on honey, give me some
Run baby run
Run from the bad love
New love baby, come on honey, give me some
Give me some

The drunken clown's still hanging round
But it plain the laughter's all died down
The tears you tried so hard to hide
Are flowin'
A blind man with his knife in hand
Has convinced himself that he understands
I wish him well, Miss Carousel
But I gotta be a-goin'

Won't you come and get me when
You're sure that you don't need me then
I stand outside your window
And proudly call your name

The ladies been told that all of gold
Is worth so much it can't be sold
No time to weep she'll need her sleep
Tomorrow
When she carries her face to the market place
And bets it on the opening race
She can ring her bells, Miss Carousel
But her singing brings me sorrow

It's always done every mother's son
Is shown that grown men never run
And so they fight with all the might
Inside them
When the battle's been fought and they all been taught
That the trick is just not being caught
Will you give them hell, Miss Carousel
When they're begging you to hide them

When the need arose your eyes fell closed
You clamped your fingers round your nose
Would you say that's any way
To judge him
You haven't got the authority
To kill him in the first degree
But would you feel compelled, Miss Carousel
If you have something to begrudge him

On a velvet beach far beneath the reach
Of those that come to pray and preach
The natural man who tries to stand
Is fallin
How long will it be before he sees
You own his legs but his mind is free
Only you can tell, Miss Carousel
How long will he be crawling?

The castle walls has grown so tall
Seem there ain't no hope at all
To reach the top even though you stop
For breathin'
But I ain't gonna try to make you cry
The tear drops couldn't find your eye
It's all been swell, Miss Carousel
But the time has come for leavin'

This sounds kinda strange, I thought
I saw you at a party but
I finally got close, it wasn't you

I know we don't talk right now
But if I saw you, I'd sit down
And ask about your afternoon

You made it clear that it's over now
But you're all that I think about
So now I don't know what the hell to do
'Cause I've got a soft spot
I've got it for you
It for you

We used to lie in bed and talk
For hours about everything
And anything you said you wanted to

Pull the covers over our short hair
Pretend like the city wasn't there
Like it was only just us two

You told me that it's over now
But I can't help that I think about
All the things that we used to do
'Cause I've got a soft spot
I've got it for you
It for you

I wish I left all my things at your place so I could come get them
We'd do things we might regret
And say that we could make exceptions
I just can't take the rejection
Maybe I'm just second-guessing

'Cause I've got a soft spot
I've got it for you
It for you
It for you
It for you
It for you

Oh we are sensitive people
Afraid to say the wrong thing
So I walk home alone
Recalling everything
Whole conversations
Play by play
I thought by this age
I'd always know what to say

But I've stopped making those conclusions
For all the nights that I've enjoyed
There's been a couple more that I've spent
Simply humbled by the void

And who did you think I was
When you first met me moons ago
When I wanted to kiss you forever
And babe you wanted to take it slow
Take it slow
Take it slow

Did I disappoint you
I'm pretty sure I did
You thought I was some kind of rockstar
I was a nervous little kid

And I assumed you were someone
I could lean myself upon
But with the blink of an eye
You were out the door gone

So I've stopped making those conclusions
Thinking you could truly know someone
You peel a layer, find another
No you're never really done

And who did I think you were
When we danced in the setting sun
When you said that you'd love me forever
And I was getting ready to run
Ready to run
Ready to run

Who did I think I was
As I narrowed in closer to the sun
And perhaps I'll feel like this forever
I'm always ready to run
Ready to run
Ready to run

Oh it's already begun
I'm getting ready
Ready to run

Oh it's already begun
I'm getting ready
Ready to run

Oh it's already begun
I'm getting ready
Ready to run

Fly little crow
High as a kite until you're breathless
Wild and bold like your mother's clothes
Little Rock may you roll
Slow and steady like the Cumberland River
May you wind down every road

‍
Ask me all kinds of questions
I'll tell you everything I know
When I cannot find the answers
I'll help you find them on your own
Tell them girls they're more than pretty
Keep those mean boys on their toes
When you're wrestling with Jesus
May his love, with its push and shove
Be the thing you hold

‍
Twirl little girl
Follow your heart, and be sure to guard it
Take care where you cast your pearls
Never settle little petal
Use your voice and stand up tall
Lead those flowers from the wall

‍
Ask me all kinds of questions
I'll tell you everything I know
When I cannot find the answers
I'll help you find them on your own
Tell them girls they're more than pretty
Keep those mean boys on their toes
When you're wrestling with Jesus
May his love, with its push and shove
Be the thing you hold onto

Don't look down
Hold up your head now
Hang on to your honor
Don't know why I've compromised you the most (the most)

You pull it closer
Don't make it hard now
If I remember one thing, it's
That I don't surprise you at all
Anymore

Is there something that you want to say to me?
Is there somewhere that you want to escape too?
I'll cling like a waterfall
While I don't recognize you at all
Anymore

You watch me burn out like a rocket
I catch you mumbling it time after time
I just want all of it to stop your crying
I'll take the bribe now
It's so unimportant what started the fight

All eyes ahead
It's sadder at the end
I drink 'til I'm falling down and
I'm hanging on by a thread

Is there something that you want to say to me?
Is there somewhere that you want to escape to?
I'll cling like a waterfall
While I don't recognize you at all
Anymore

You watch me burn out like a rocket
I catch you mumbling it time after time
I just want all of it to stop your crying
I'll take the bribe now
It's so unimportant what started the fight

Well I knew

But I didn't want to know

And I saw

Well I didn't want to go

I took my lucky break and I broke it in two
Put on my worried shoes
My ah ah worried shoes
And my shoes took me so many miles and they never wore out
My worried shoes

My ah ah worried shoes
My ah ah worried shoes

I made a mistake and I never forgot
I tied knots in the laces of
My ah ah worried shoes
And with every step that I'd take I'd remember my mistake
As I marched further and further away

In my ah ah worried shoes
My ah ah worried shoes

And my shoes took me down a crooked path
Away from all welcome mats
My ah ah worried shoes
And then one day I looked around and I found the sun shining down
And I took off my worried shoes

And the feet broke free
I didn't need to wear
Then I knew the difference between worrying and caring
Cause I've got a lot of walking to do
And I don't want to wear
My ah ah worried shoes

What's the point of this
If I know how it ends?
You said I got the spark
Well baby, are you the flint?
And don't you dare me to
'Cause you know that I will
And don't you say those words
That ain't part of our deal

Walk five miles from my door
Just to give you some more
Do you just talk to me
When you're lonely and bored?
And don't you act like that
When you know what I feel
And don't you tell me to stay
'Cause you know that I will

But you get so close
I almost don't bite my lip
Happy accident
And I wanna die
When you say don't cry
I won't quit
Happy accident

Always measure my time
By the way you spend mine
I wanna burn it all down
Could I borrow a light?
And don't you dare me to
I could leave in the night
And don't you dare me to
'Cause you know I could fly

But you get so close
I almost don't bite your lip
Happy accident
And I wanna die
When you say don't cry
I won't quit
I'm no accident

What's the point of this?
I don't know how it ends

Up the whole night, undefined
Can't stop thinking 'bout peace and war
Up the whole night
Right before the sun takes everything
It could've been anything
I didn't feel anything

Up the whole night, underline
Chain smoking like, no, it ain't right
Afternoon beer, understand
It could've been anything
It could've been anything
I didn't feel anything

You love him by the stove light in your arms
He is there because he can't stand the sad eyes

I couldn't feel anything
I couldn't feel anything
I couldn't feel anything
I couldn't feel anything
I couldn't feel anything

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Memorize the bathwater, memorize the air
There'll come a time I'll wanna know I was here
Names on the doorframes, inches and ages
Handprints in concrete, at the softest stages

I don't know why I don't try harder
I feel like throwing towels into water

Get it down to nothing, everything that matters
Fever flashes, eyelashes and traffic patterns
Humidity, history, chemistry and panic
Swimsuits in windows of electric minivans

I don't know why I don't try harder
I've been going down some, some strange water

Move forward now, there's nothing to do
Can't turn around, I can't follow you
Your coat's in my car, I guess you forgot
It's crazy the things we let go of

It finally hits me, a mile's drive
The sky is leaking, my windshield's crying
I'm feeling sacred, my soul is stripped
Radio's painful, the words are clipped
The grief, it gets me, the weird goodbyes
My car is creepin', I think it's dying
I'm pullin' over until it heals
I'm on a shoulder of lemon fields

What was I even leaving for
I keep going back and forth
I think now I'm about to see
Didn't know how sad it'd be

Memorize the bathwater, memorize the air
There'll come a time I'll wanna know I was here
Names on the doorframes, inches and ages
Handprints in concrete, at the softest stages

I don't know why I don't try harder
I feel like throwing towels into water

Move forward now, there's nothing to do
Can't turn around, and I can't follow you
Your coat's in my car, I guess you forgot
It's crazy the things we let go of

It finally hits me, a mile's drive
The sky is leaking, my windshield's crying
I'm feeling sacred, my soul is stripped
Radio's painful, the words are clipped
The grief, it gets me, and the weird goodbyes
My car is creepin', I think it's dying
I'm pullin' over until it heals
I'm on a shoulder of lemon fields
The grief, it gets me, the weird goodbyes
My car is creepin', I think it's dying
I'm pullin' over until it heals
I'm on a shoulder of lemon fields

No matter how hard I try
You keep pushing me aside
And I can't break through
There's no talking to you
It's so sad that you're leaving
It takes time to believe it
But after all is said and done
You're gonna be the lonely one, oh

Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
"I really don't think you're strong enough, no"
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
"I really don't think you'rе strong enough, no"

What am I supposed to do
Sit around and wait for you?
Well, I can't do that
Thеre's no turning back
I need time to move on
I need love to feel strong
'Cause I've had time to think it through
And maybe I'm too good for you, oh
‍
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
"I really don't think you're strong enough, no"
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
"I really don't think you're strong enough, no"

And I know that I'll get through this
'Cause I know that I am strong
And I don't need you anymore
I don't need you anymore
I don't need you anymore
I don't need you anymore

Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
"I really don't think you're strong enough, no"
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
"I really don't think you're strong enough, no"
Do you believe in life after love?
Oh, do you believe in love?

Some roads are only seen at night
Ghost roads, nothing but neon signs
But some nights the neon gas gets free
And turns into walking dead like me

And I've been making promises I know I'll never keep
One of these days I'm gonna leave you in your sleep
I'll have to go when the whistle blows
The whistle knows my name
Baby, I was born on a train

Well, I know that you were never young
And I know you probably won't get old
But, honey, nobody's gonna hurt you anymore
And nobody's gonna make you want to die

And I've been making promises I know I'll never keep
One of these days I'm gonna leave you in your sleep
I'll have to go when the whistle blows
The whistle knows my name
Baby, I was born on a train

I'll go some cold and grey morning
And you won't remember anything
But some people don't believe in time
And some of us don't believe in life

And I've been making promises I know I'll never keep
One of these days I'm gonna leave you in your sleep
I'll have to go when the whistle blows
The whistle knows my name
Baby, I was born on a train
Baby, I was born on a train

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I don't wanna talk right now
I just wanna watch TV
I'll stay in the pool and drown
So I don't have to watch you leave
I put on Survivor just to watch somebody suffer
Maybe I should get some sleep
Sinking in the sofa while they all betray each other
What's the point of anything?

All of my friends are missing again
That's what happens when you fall in love
You don't have the time, you leave them all behind
You tell yourself it's fine, you're just in love

Don't know where you are right now
Did you see me on TV?
I'll try not to starve myself
Just because you're mad at me
And I'll be in denial for at least a little while
What about the plans we made?
The internet's gone wild watching movie stars on trial
While they're overturning Roe v. Wade

Now all of my friends are missing again
'Cause that's what happens when you fall in love
You don't have the time, you leave them all behind
And you tell yourself it's fine, you're just in love

And I don't get along with anyone
Maybe I'm the problem
Maybe I'm the problem

Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm the problem
Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm the problem
Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm the problem
Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm the problem
Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm the problem
Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm the problem
Baby, I, baby, I, baby, I'm the problem
Baby, I, baby, I, baby, I'm the problemBaby, I, baby, I, baby, I'm the problem
Baby, I, baby, I, baby, I'm the problemBaby, I, baby, I, baby, I'm the problem

Baby, I'm starting to think that we both need to stop drinking
I'm tired of wasting so much time hungover on these weekends
But he looked best when he was mine
I never believed it when he said he wasn't trying, but
God, would you please never cut your hair?
I've never loved like a lovesong before
"Electric Woman" playing on the dance floor
Distorted reflections in the mirrorball, my vision's not so clear now

What's the deal, what's the 411
I had a call yesterday with the sun
She told me this: don't worry, you'll be fine dear,
You're still so young

Baby, I'm starting to think that we both need to stop drinking
I'm tired of wasting so much time hungover on these weekends
But he looked best when he was mine
Never believed it when he said he wasn't trying, but
God, would you please never cut your hair?
I've never loved like a lovesong before
"Electric Woman" playing on the dance floor
Distorted reflections in the mirrorball, my vision's not so clear now

And I find peace when I'm all alone
And when I drive down familiar roads
Now with a drink in my hand, barely can stand, feels like I'm 17 again
And I want to go there, I want to be her,
Oh, there's so many things I could teach her
There's so much to life beyond the misdemeanours

Baby, I've been thinking
We both need to stop drinking, oh
But he looked best when he was mine
I never believed him when he said he wasn't trying, but
My god, would you please never cut your hair?
I've never loved like a lovesong before
Ooh
Never loved like a lovesong before,
"Electric Woman" playing on the dance floor
Distorted reflections in the mirrorball, my vision's not so clear now

Sitting at this party
Wondering if anyone knows me
Really sees who I am
Oh, it's been so long since I felt really known

Fragile in the morning
Can't hold on to much of anything
With this hole in my hand
I can't pretend that we always keep what we find
Oh, yes, everybody splits apart sometimes

Living in the wake of overwhelming changes
We've all become strangers
Even to ourselves
We just can't help
We can't see from far away
To know that every wave might not be the same
But it's all apart of one big thing

Oh, it's not just me, it's not just me
It's not just me
It's everybody (everybody)
Everybody, everybody, everybody

Mercy is the only
Cure for being so lonely
Has a time ever been more revealing
That the people are hurting

Oh, it's not just me
I guess, it's everybody
Yes, we all bleed the same way

Oh, it's not just me, it's not just me
It's not just me
It's everybody (everybody)
Everybody, everybody, everybody
Everybody, everybody, everybody

Oh, it's not just me, it's not just me
It's not just me
It's everybody
It's not just me

Your love is a diamond
It sharpens me so nice
But I was never one for
Sharpness or disguise

The wind told me a secret
More coming where that came from
And I saw the trees shiver
And brace for all to come

Take me dancing
Touch my skin and hold me

Anything
Anything to feel close again

Your love is a disaster
It frightens me so bad
But I'll keep looking straight
Blinders up
Yeah, I've got it made

There's a train the next block over
Whistle blows on foggy nights
Sneaks through my open window
But I don't mind the noise
No, I don't mind the noise

Take me dancing
Touch my skin and hold me

Anything
Anything to feel close again

Take me dancing
Touch my skin and hold me

Anything
Anything to feel close again

Feel close again

Close again

I've been out walking
I don't do too much talking these days

These days
These days I seem to think a lot
About the things that I forgot to do

And all the times I had a chance to

I stopped my rambling
I don't do too much gambling these days

These days
These days I seem to think about
All these changes came about my way

And I wonder if I'll see another highway

I had a lover
I don't think I'll risk another these days

These days
And if I seem to be afraid
To live the life I made in song

It's just that I've been losing so long

I stopped my dreaming
I won't do too much scheming these days

These days
These days I sit on cornerstones
Count the time in quarter tones to ten

Please, don't confront me with my failures
I had not forgotten them

These days, these days
These days

Everything is goin' wrong
Nothings right anymore
We can't seem to get along
The way we did before

Sun is hangin' in the sky
Sinkin' low and so am I
Just for the love of someone
And a big red sun

How'm I gonna lose
These big red sun blues
Big red sun big red sun
Big red sun blues

True love to hold
Is worth everything
It's worth more than gold
Or any diamond ring

But this little diamond
And a heart that's been broken
Are all I got from you
Big red sun

How'm I gonna lose
These big red sun blues
Big red sun big red sun
Big red sun blues

Look out at that western sky
Out over the open plains
God only knows why
This is all that remains

But give me one more promise
And another kiss
And I guess the deal's still on
You big red sun

How'm I gonna lose
These big red sun blues
Big red sun big red sun
Big red sun blues

How'm I gonna lose
These big red sun blues
Big red sun big red sun
Big red sun blues

If it comes from the whiskey, then pour me a drink
If it comes from the heartache, let me feel the sting
If it comes from the spirits, set 'em loose in this room
Either way tonight it's just me and the truth

I wanna pray like Jesus is listening
I wanna play like I'm made of strings on wood
I wanna write it down like Hemingway
Like it's the last damn thing I'll ever say
And try to sing it like Patsy would

Sometimes it's a blessing, sometimes it's a curse
I've let it keep me up all night lookin' for the worst
Sometimes a pen knows just what to say
And it spills out like a waterfall on a clean white dais

I wanna pray like Jesus is listening
I wanna play like I'm made of strings on wood
I wanna write it down like Hemingway
Like it's the last damn thing I'll ever say
And try to sing it like Patsy would

I wanna pray like Jesus is listening
I wanna play like I'm made of strings on wood
I wanna write it down like Hemingway
Like it's the last damn thing I'll ever say
And try to sing it like Patsy would

I had nothing to say on Christmas day
When you threw all your clothes in the snow
When you burnt your hair and knocked over chairs
I just tried to stay out of your way

But when you fell asleep with blood on your teeth
I just got in my car and drove away

Listen to me, butterfly
There's only so much wine
That you can drink in one life
And it will never be enough
To save you from the bottom of your glass

Where the state highway starts, I parked my car
And I got out and stared up at the stars
And as meteors dived and shot across the sky
I thought about your sad, shining eyes

I came back for my clothes when the sun finally rose
And you were still passed out on the floor

Listen to me, butterfly
There's only so much wine
That you can drink in one life
And it will never be enough
To save you from the bottom of your glass

I felt a funeral, in my brain
And mourners to and fro
Treading, treading till it seemed
That sense was breaking through

And when we all were seated
A service, like a drum
Beating, beating till I thought
My mind was going numb
My mind was growing

And then I heard them lift a box
And creak across my soul
With the same boots of lead again
Then space, space began to toll

As all the heavens were a bell
And being, but an ear
And I and silence, some strange race
Wrecked, solitary, here

And then a plank in reason, broke
And I dropped down and down
And hit a world, at every plunge
And finished knowing then
And finished knowing

And then I heard them lift a box
And creak across my soul
With the same boots of lead again
Then space, space began to toll

I felt a funeral, in my brain
And mourners to and fro
Treading, treading till it seemed
That sense was breaking through

A husband waits outside
A crying child pushes a child into the night
She was told he would come this time
Without leaving so much as a feather behind
To enact at last the perfect plan
One more sweet boy to be butchered by man

But the gateway to the world
Was still outside the reach of him
What never belonged to angels
Had never belonged to men
The swan upon Leda
Empire upon Jerusalem

A grandmother smuggling meds
Past where the god child-soldier Setanta stood dead
Our graceful turner of heads
Weaves through the checkpoints like a needle and thread
Someone's frightened boy waves her on
She offers a mother's smile, and soon she's gone

The gateway to the world
The gun in a trembling hand
Where nature unmakes the boundary
The pillar of myth still stands
The swan upon Leda
Occupier upon ancient land

The gateway to the world
Was still outside the reach of him
What never belonged to angels
Had never belonged to men

I am under attack
And I can't fight back
I can't even see what's hanging on my back
Is it a targeting?
Is it a beast of rage?
Either way I'll never act my age

I'm running free
I'm running wild
I'm running still
Running child
Running down my burden
Running on sweet smile

I mostly feel like hell
You say "I'm doing well"
Here on earth where can we go so, we can tell
The paint will slowly fade
Never to wash away
I can't carry you, I don't know what to say!

I'm running free
I'm running wild
I'm running still
Running child
Running down my burden
Running on sweet smile
Running down my burden
Running on sweet smile

Close your eyes
Tell me lie
I see, you sacrifice
Guess no blame
Only shame
Be my everything

I'm running free
I'm running wild
I'm running still
Running child
Running down my burden
Running on sweet smile
Running down my burden
Running on sweet smile

Running down my burden
Running on sweet smile
Hmmm, hmm, uhh-hmm!

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Don't you give a fuck
I am not starstruck anymore
I hope you say my name
When you tell your friends, that you're a good boy

Now I have more money than you do
Does it make you feel like you failed
I recall the last time I saw you
You looked very bad

Don't you find it strange
To like girls my age or younger
I hope your sis' is fine
When you see her face, tell her that I love her

Now I have more money than you do
Does it make you feel like you failed
I recall the last time I saw you
You looked very bad

I was never in love with you
I was trying find myself
I was never in love with you
I found myself thank you

Now that I have more money than you do
Does it make you feel like you failed
I recall the last time I saw you
You looked very bad

That I have more money than you do
Does it make you feel like you failed?
I recall the last time I saw you
You looked very bad

If I could see in the future
Fluent in tapestry
Tarot card witchery'd
Tell me that you might not be there
But it's hard to believe when you're sitting right next me
Sayin' out loud Of how you love me now

Cause I could be running in circles
Tripping on the same pebbles
Crash down cry for help as you
Always do run to the rescue
Any fall can be faltered
A buffer to all of my faults but please
Do watch your step around me

Well you're someone I count on to show up
Even through all the absence in learning from consequence
Who needs a friend when I've got you
Are you sure I'm not too much
I'm sorry it's just how I am
You swear it's not like that, there there

Hey I know that it's 4 in the morning
I've got something to tell you
I've been holding on to and
Now that it's gotten quite heavy
Here you go ain't it terribly ugly
It's just like me to fuck up
Don't let me fall back down

I felt it from the beginning
How your love did collapse
And your pity did atrophy
Slowly decay
No your words didn't fade
Said the pantomime up on the stage
It was all just a play
Did not expect to pay
I was just your waste of time
And I knew that I was right
You phony love of mine
You phony love of mine